 
This heart is sick. It’s lost the knack 
of skip, jump, swell and sing. It limps 
back and forth, truckling, a cowed thing 
seeking a chamber of stopped clocks, 
the black of a full stop. It is crocked, 
heavy with sorrows, the long doze
of evening, unaroused by the aromas
of skin, the urge to hunt and stalk.
 
Cut it out. Only the odd kink
or habit will be lost, an easy exchange –
young for old. Crack open the heart’s cage,
implant the new occupant, shocking it 
into motion if it doesn’t take, then wait 
for the build of passion, the soar, the race.
 
I will not care about the firing, 
the mastery of materials, when I am grit
 
and grilled bone, a snow of particles 
in a ceramic body, each pot 
perched like a squat bird on the rungs
 
of a white ladder, a spreading estate. 
Mourning is the stuff of their making –
they were born to hold death.
 
The vessel for my remains 
will be those who carry part of me
 
in their histories. They will scatter 
the ash of my absence over their hearts
 
as the world dies, and hear me ticking 
in their veins. They will be my memorial.
 
(after the works of Willard Wigan)
 
In the slow of night 
when the static charge 
of objects bleeds away, 
 
he sculpts figures 
from a grain of sand, 
shapes nylon shreds,
 
dust fibres, lashes,
webs, into families 
for the eye of a needle. 
 
With a diamond flake 
tied to a pin, he carves
a girl, paints her red
 
with the hair of a fly, 
points an insect claw
to steady her in place.
 
Such figures can’t exist
for the casual eye, 
ill-equipped for detail 
 
that comes alive 
in the cavernous deep
of a full-stop. Here 
 
they wait to be 
magnified into life, 
while he meditates 
 
till his pulse
loiters and stalls,
his touch timed
 
to the lull 
between each beat
and the next.
 
And isn’t it funny, like they say, 
how much you want something 
if your chances are reduced, 
and you’re driving along the highway,
wrinkles squinting at the rear-view, 
hands all knuckles and veins on the wheel,
 
when, as if to add insult, you’re told
by the DJ that the music pattering
under wheel thrum and wind noise
which, you realise only now, had got you
 
picturing girls in pink tutus with ribbon straps 
over lark-boned shoulders, their bellies pouting, 
the music you’d half been humming
was Frédéric Chopin’s Menopause.