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Barbara Hickson poems
after Esther Morgan
It’s just as you imagined:
Hebridean light flooding the room,
an ocean breeze rippling home-made curtains.
You love the wrought iron window catch
curling like a stray tendril,
the Lloyd Loom chair, the sea-green dresser.
It’s everything you wanted:
this narrow path braiding the outcrop,
parting the fringe of ochre grass;
this wedge of earth in its rocky cleft –
nothing ahead but the Atlantic,
nothing behind but a field of geese.
It’s what you knew you needed:
this small, green hut, door thrown open
to thrushes and rabbit scat;
this almost-silence
this inbreath
this outbreath.
Perhaps we’re foxes
digging our names in the earth.
When night comes
we’ll slip as mist into trees,
bark slant secrets to the moon.
By day, I’ll walk beside you,
scenting out similarities, a shared territory.
Both of us will feel the nearness of dusk,
the solace of rain on the air.
These Koi Carp in the formal pond remind me
of the Timothy Hitsman shoes I wore on our wedding day.
Oyster pale, pearlescent, their texture could have been fish-skin.
They were slippery – smooth leather soles sliding on tarmac –
and skittish – slingback straps escaping the curve of my heel
so I nearly stepped out of them, left them
basking in the shade of azaleas,
afraid they might dart away
at any moment.
a polar vortex in Michigan
glazed each fruit in an orchard
shrouded it in ice
when the flesh within
thawed before its mantle
it rotted seeped from the base
leaving a ghost apple
transparent
apparently intact
I thought of grief
the numbing shock of loss
the breaking down
the draining away of self
leaving a shell
externally perfect but frozen
just
hanging
on